2018 in hindsight
Every year when the year is about to end or has ended, you reflect back on it. How has been the year, is the most primitive question that comes to your mind and the begining of 2019 was no diferent. In fact, instead of asking myself, how was 2018, I was asking if there had been anything good that happened in 2018. It had been that sort of a year. I could not recall a single good thing that had happened to me. but I had so many bad experiences to recall from 2018. After all, how do you reflect on a year in which you went to the jail. Not only was I in prison for good 13 days, my cases were far from over. I had not seen any promotion or growth at work, there wasn't anything good that had happened to me. But then right when I was about to stop asking myself the answer to 2018 question. I had a diffrent perspective to the same question. All of a sudden 2018 wasn't the worst year ever. It was a year of priceless expreinces, unlimited freedom and a begining of self discovery. It was a year that laid foundation to a road that would lead me to the kind of life I want to make for myself.
Even though I went to the jail, it had so many positives. 1) I paid for my doings, it was a punishment I deserved. 2) I realized how important was freedom and what kind of life people lead in there. 3) I got to know who my true friends were (who stood by me and who didn't) 4) I realized what I wanted to do in my life. (There's so much to write about the days spent in jail, I think I will write another post about it)
Road to Freedom: Another important lesson I learned was to be myself and not care about what others think of me. To live by my own rules and not society's. When you're not married, people want you to get married. When you don't have kids they want you to have kids. When you don't have a job they want you to have a job... and the list goes on and on.. but when you fuck up they care the least. It's as if their job is done. You're screwed. All your life you keep trying to please people who dont matter and don't care a bit about you. Once you're married the same people who wanted you to get married, don't ask you once how you're doing or if they can do anything to help you. They don't... no one cares. So you might as well do things that complete you, make you happy and if it means not following the society, so be it. Your people would stand by you and those who condem you, complain or criticise you are not your people. Their opinions don't matter. And I thikn that's the most important lesson I learnt. To be myself, free myself from the people who're not mine and find my bunch of people.
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In 2019, I feel more confident, more positive and find myself in a much happier place. I feel I've gained a lot out of 2018 and it wasn't a bad year by any means. I learnt a lot and have become a much wiser person.
Even though I went to the jail, it had so many positives. 1) I paid for my doings, it was a punishment I deserved. 2) I realized how important was freedom and what kind of life people lead in there. 3) I got to know who my true friends were (who stood by me and who didn't) 4) I realized what I wanted to do in my life. (There's so much to write about the days spent in jail, I think I will write another post about it)
Road to Freedom: Another important lesson I learned was to be myself and not care about what others think of me. To live by my own rules and not society's. When you're not married, people want you to get married. When you don't have kids they want you to have kids. When you don't have a job they want you to have a job... and the list goes on and on.. but when you fuck up they care the least. It's as if their job is done. You're screwed. All your life you keep trying to please people who dont matter and don't care a bit about you. Once you're married the same people who wanted you to get married, don't ask you once how you're doing or if they can do anything to help you. They don't... no one cares. So you might as well do things that complete you, make you happy and if it means not following the society, so be it. Your people would stand by you and those who condem you, complain or criticise you are not your people. Their opinions don't matter. And I thikn that's the most important lesson I learnt. To be myself, free myself from the people who're not mine and find my bunch of people.
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In 2019, I feel more confident, more positive and find myself in a much happier place. I feel I've gained a lot out of 2018 and it wasn't a bad year by any means. I learnt a lot and have become a much wiser person.
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